it’s funny how you can activate a jealous spirit within people.
you don’t even realize you did it,
nor do you do it purposely,
but you can become the villain in their story very quickly.
i was talking to one of my good home-vixens about jobs today.
we worked together at a past job and i always admired her.
she was a force to be reckoned with and handled adversity so flawlessly.
she told me how jealousy at work actually works…
even though your boss is in charge,
when people gravitate to you,
and you end up being the “go-to” rather than those above you,
that can arouse a secret jealousy within them.
no one who is above wants their subordinate being the “star”.
she learned that people above her didn’t like how bright she shined.
when we hung up,
it made me think about my last job.
everyone always said that my bosses were jealous of the attention i got.
they hated that i was the one people chose over them.
no one fucked with them,
but they confided in me really heavy.
Did I sabotage myself because of someone else’s insecurities?
i don’t necessarily do anything but be myself.
i’ve noticed that can be a huge issue for some.
i’m not the show boat or try to be “the star”.
God forbid a wolf shows more interest in me over another:
people are just naturally drawn to me.
from what i’m seeing,
that created a lot of silent enemies in my past jobs.
so i had to wonder…
How do you mute your own colors to avoid creating jealousy?
with all these “rules” of catering to other’s egos,
i could as well find a remote job.