“i needed a break from you”
this is what work wolf told me yesterday.
you get the point!
so when i was getting ready to leave to work…
i got my first text from work wolf in a while.
you know i been on that silent treatment type heavy.
he wanted me to wait for him outside to talk.
now i was like:
so now you want to walk home after all this?
…but i decided it was the perfect time to find out wtf is going on.
so i agreed.
when i got downstairs,
he was already outside.
it felt like i was looking at a stranger.
he was all smiles and open language to me.
as we walked to the train,
i didn’t really have much to say first.
i kinda let him just do the talking.
he needed to explain himself before i decided to go in.
from his point of view,
he said that he really appreciates me in his life.
no one has done or will do the things i have.
he said at this point i am like family to him.
he never had a friend like me before.
“what do you mean?”
someone like you…”
he was trying to say “gay”,
but he said he didn’t feel comfortable saying the word “gay”.he has been stressed at work,
stressed at home,
stressed about money,
and then i was stressing him out.
the constant arguing we were doing was not helping.
he said he shut down.
he admitted he was wrong about that part.
he doesn’t like arguing or drama.
i’m the only one who gets under his skin.
he pointed out how we were arguing every day over dumb shit.
“you were acting like a bitch.
ima just be honest…”
i can admit that.
it made him feel like he couldn’t talk to me,
or make a mistake,
without me going off on him about it.
he thinks of our friendship as “an escape“.
i understood my role in creating the distance.
i also apologized.
before i left him to go home,
i mentioned how we both needed some time apart.
he said he doesn’t want to end our friendship,
i gave him dap,
but before i went left,
he told me that he missed me.
he also called me “big head” again.
i do too.
the days are kinda boring with you.”
a mutual break for a while is good.
i’m glad i can put an end to that.