it can either sit high above everything or it’s reserved for special things.
i’m realizing i have an issue with the things i put on pedestals…
when i like someone,
or they show me they’re real (
“real” is such an awful word now),
i want to be around them.
they often see that i’m different,
and they want to do the same.
so i put them on a pedestal and they do the same for me.
so i think.
i’m starting to realize:
Many of the folks I put on pedestals don’t deserve to be there
let’s break them,
they are revealed to be really selfish people.
i’ve been really silly.
2020 has shown that i’ve put the wrong folks (outside my friends) i’ve put on pedestals.
we shared special moments,
but they were either reasons or seasons.
do you know i spend more time with you all?
this side of my life gives me so much more support.
i go on my personal accounts,
sprinkle some razzle dazzle,
and then i sign tf out.
peace sign until next time.
many of the folks i thought i were cool turned out to be emotionally unavailable people.
i seem to be a magnet for those types.
it’s those masks that fool you.
the ones that are so pretty and extravagant that distract you from what’s underneath.
Everyone is dealing with their own issues,
but is it hard to respond back to a message?
this is what happens when you put your faith in average folks.
i tend to be stupid at times.