My Foxhole Is Visible For Your Love

it just one kind word to clear clouds out your life.
anyone can sit up here and buy nice shit.
you’ll get bored of it eventually.
these sexy wolves/hybrids/foxes with these nice bawdies?
if they have nothing to offer besides a bawdy,
then they will be another trophy on your case.
someone taking time out their day to show how much they appreciate you?
that is worth more than gold.
when i read the message

“i don’t think you realize HOW LONG I’ve been trying to get a post on your blog.
i consider today a big accomplishment for me.”

do you know how that made me feel?
well,
for one,
i cried.
this job situation has me feeling so neglected and out-casted right now.
i work so hard on the foxhole and i won’t lie,
compared to my peers,
i often feel invisible.
hell,
i feel invisible off the foxhole besides with friends and family.
what i need to realize:

I DON”T KNOW WHO IS WATCHING

either in or out of  my foxhole.
at times,
we think no one cares about us.
it feels like we don’t matter to anyone besides those in our circle.
to someone out there tho:

WE MATTER

thank you for brightening my days with your comments and emails.
it means so much to me.
i don’t think you understand!
i’m thankful for you all.

lowkey: i like to do this to show my appreciation of YOU in my life.

8 thoughts on “My Foxhole Is Visible For Your Love

  1. Jamari, you gotta know that for some of us it is the highlight of the day. I 100% understand that email. Sometimes it doesn’t even have to be a post. Just a response to a comment is good enough.

  2. You’re welcome. I’m glad I stumbled across your blog 6 years ago. You have provided a great outlet for likeminded individuals like myself. The serious topics, the men, the entertainment news, and your life chronicles are well received by your readers and I. Despite not getting the recognition you deserve, don’t stop, cause we need you, and your time of glory and praise will come soon. Much love, Jamari.

  3. Jamari, you are so special. I normally don’t speak don’t speak for others, but I can say that you mean the world to a lot of people. You have helped me at my lowest, and you might not believe this but there were a few times when I was down about a particular thing, and you wrote a post about the way I was feeling no joke. I remember a couple years ago when I wrote my first fox mail and you posted it, that made me feel so special lol. Much love and blessings to you.

  4. I second the message you received. I have been faithfully coming to this blog for a few months now. It love it, it feels like community in a way. I live in a place that doesn’t have many black people and it doesn’t have a large gay community, let alone a black gay community. It is so nice to have these discussions about race, etc that I don’t normally have with my white friends. (We talk about race but it’s different)
    Last week I made my first comment on this blog, Jamari responded, i about nearly fainted. I am so great full for this space you have created Jamari. You should know that you mean a lot to people that don’t even know you.

  5. You do so much to inspire and encourage man…Directly and indirectly…Besides these trophies we all collect, you are consistent and make us all in the foxhole daily….We love you Jamari!

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