have you ever looked at others and wonder why they get all the love?
you are just as smart,
and good looking,
but you get treated like the back of someone’s shoe.
you start to realize just how fake some folks were to you.
when you in their zone,
they have no choice than to smile in your face.
they co sign how everyone is wack.
they claim they got your back,
but once you not there anymore,
…but they showing others all this love.
this is how i been feeling.
as of late…
…i have been feeling like an outcast.
i’ll look on some of my old co worker’s pages and i’ll see all this love.
ones who aren’t working there anymore.
those same pineapples don’t give a fuck about me.
they were the main ones spreading rumors.
well fuck ittttttttt!
just tell everyone jamari got fired rather than tell the truth.
it really fuckin’ sucks.
i feel alone.
it’s like i don’t know how to shake that feeling.
i got caught up in this trap of comparing myself to others.
the worst one to be in.
i been feeling like a nobody compared to others i been around.
that has always been my life.
from school to work,
i been that someone who gets “tossed to the side”.
those same ones were up deep in my ass when i was in their face.
the crazy part?
as life goes on,
those same pineapples want to come back and apologize.
they actually admit they were wrong for treating me like shit.
i had one the other day throw up memorials of shit we “use to do”.
i remember i was always there for this muthafucka!
this same pineapple chose pussy over me.
that same pussy went and fucked his best friend.
i was the loyal one tho.
i’m always the loyal one.
it hurt like hell back then,
as i’m feeling right now,
but eventually i moved on and did my own thing.
i picked up the pieces and crazy glued it all back together.
when they came back,
i wasn’t interested in them anymore.
i hate that i’m never the one that is taken seriously until it’s too late.
the money gets funny
the ones you chose over me turn on them
the pussy/dick/tail was the wrong choice
they need me for another season
it’s that “in-between blessings” that sucks.
you see everyone else doing well and you in some quicksand.
everything and everyone is enhanced by 200.
all you can do is say:
it’s like that?
i see you.”
i gave those hyenas and jackals 3 years of my life.
the other was looking like the same wave.
i busted my ass and never had a valid complaint.
the rest didn’t do shit,
but i was there working like a slave.
they broke me down,
tossed me out like i was trash,
and acted i never made an impact.
that doesn’t feel good at all.
i’m legit hurt,
but i’ll be aight.
Has anyone in the foxhole ever felt like this?
i needed to vent.
this is probably doesn’t make any sense,
but i needed to get whatever was off my chest.
lowkey: i pray God makes success my biggest revenge.
all their fake asses they can have each other.