well i guess i got my first test today!
how fast was that?!…
i knew once i had this “life enlightenment” that a test soon come.
the next day?
god didn’t even prepare a fox.
so after the first entry this morning,
i decided to work out a little bit in my room.
a little squatting and a little sit ups.
nothing crazy.
i had my heat on full blast so i worked up a nice little sweat.
rewind to yesterday.
i walked past the grocery store because i was gonna go today.
fast forward to today.
i have no food in my fridge.
that is where the life enlightenment shoulda kicked in.
so i go to take a shower and the water is ice cold.
there is no hot water in my crib.
for the last couple mornings,
if i didn’t wake up crazy early,
i woulda had no hot water at all.
i’d have to do a “ho bath” with a pot and a cup.
the lord know how much i detest that shit.
i love to shower and feel the water all over my body.
well it’s past 8pm and nothing.
it’s still arctic in my shower.
 the landlord said they would get someone to come out.
that was at 3pm.
so i’m a stinky hungry mess.
all the pots are dirty because mi cooked before she went to work.
they are in the sink,
piled up,
and greasy.
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oh yeah.
how do i take responsibility?
i should have went to the grocery store yesterday.
i should have also bathed earlier before mi cooked.
if i had the money,
i would have taken my stinky ass to a hotel in the city.
i wouldn’t have seen my crib until tuesday.
in a perfect world.
lowkey: can i still be moody in my life enlightenment or nah?
no?
i can’t?
ugh okay…
I can’t wait for the day when you kick Mi out of your apartment. I really don’t like her and I don’t even know the bitch.
Go to tge store whenever you want. Bath whenever you want. Doesn’t give people to be asshole and you own their shit
Don’t misinterpret tge book
Go to the store anyway and you unapologetically cuss mi out for leaving dirty dishes. You allowed her to feel she can wash dishes when she wants. Set the rule that all dishes are washed when finished cookin. Tell the landlord that rent will be late every say there is no hot water…don’t take responsibility for things that aren’t your fault
^wait…
but I thought everything is “my fault” because I allowed it to happen?
I’m confused now…
You allowed mi to feel she can make a mess. But you didn’t leave the dishes. You allowed landlord to feel they don’t have own up to their responsibility. But you didn’t turn the water off. Take responsibility for how you allow peoplet to treat you but you must decide how long you will allow the same treatment
^okay now I get it lol
so basically take responsibility for my side and bring hell down for those who need to take responsibility for theirs.
Your enlightenment doesn’t mean that bad shit won’t happen. It just means that when it does, you own the power to make it right and see that it doesn’t recur.
^yeah i don’t need another weekend like dis.
Same thing happened to me with the hot water. Here I go last night: “I’mma take a shower in the morning. I’m too tired.” Water was ice cold this morning. Thank goodness it came on a few hours ago. Lord knows I don’t like to cuss people out but it’s in me if I need it. These slum lords need to get it together. I don’t pay thousands in rent to have cold water.
You be alright, as you know it could be worse now, you know that it can. The shower situation is only temporary and that is your landlord’s problem to deal with.
^awww check man out coming through.
im good now.
ive been looking at the positives.
That sucks hard 😩
Just remember you’re new to this whole enlightenment thing and just because you’re trying to be more positive and take responsibility doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to be human and be in a down or mad mood, just don’t stay there for long. I say before you fall asleep tonight do something that’s gonna make you smile or feel better. Keep your head up!
^throwing a stink bomb in my landlord’s window would be fantastic,
but im not that #petty.
i think.
i’ll try to remain positive tho.
i won’t sink into a mood as i’m being directed to.