I have a confession to all my readers.
I know that when I say this,
it make cause some hate or even some judgment from the insecure.
It comes with the territory so here goes…
I am a sexy bottom and men are intimidated of me.
I am.
I am not “ugly sexy“.
One of those busted dudes who got WAY TOO MUCH self esteem
and look like something out of a septic tank.
Fat, ugly, bad sense of style but preaching about how good they look.
(they usually have the sexy dudes jumping through hoops)
Nah, not this bottom.
Pics?
I am incog on here anyway so you are out of luck.
I have been told plenty of times like a broken record.
I always get that I should be a model or “I know you are not single”.
Girls are always liking and crushing on me (if I liked pussy, I’d prolly be a ho).
I always attract my few friend’s boyfriends or their crushes.
So much to the point they do not bring me around dudes they like.
Just the other night,
I was talking to this dude and he couldn’t stop going on about my looks and body.
It was almost nauseating because he had no convo besides my face.
I mean I am being real.
I have no reason to lie even though we have ALL been lied to before.
I am not.
But,
I could be the sexiest bottom in the world but one fact still remains: I am single.
You would think that I would have men jumping off the walls to be with me
and that may be true but usually it is either a) sex or b) someone I am not attracted too.
My dating life is NOT perfect.
Not to mention that I am a pretty shy dude.
You would think that from my blog I am bold but in reality,
I am pretty quiet when it comes to dudes especially if I am attracted to them.
Dudes are always staring at me
(and they should because I am clearly not ugly)
but I get nervous and the moment passes.
I know people are reading this like:
“Conceited much?”
but it is not my intention.
More so, my honest struggle.
Guys look at me and think I am snotty, mean, and whatever else they muster up.
Which is funny because I am the most down to earth dude you would ever meet.
It is not my fault I was raised a certain way
and I carry those morals with me in my daily life.
I have a nice sense of style so I come off almost unapproachable.
I wish I knew more dudes that were like me in this lifestyle.
BGC and A4A is clearly under my standards because the dudes on there are 90% sketchy.
I feel trapped and it gets me sometimes.
I wish I knew a discreet bottom who knew all the TOPS and I met them through him
because I am not doing shit on my own.
My love life would be ALOT more interesting.
I know a few bottoms like myself
who are attractive and they are single.
I know females who are gorgeous and sleeping alone.
Everyone always dream of being beautiful
but it comes with it’s own set of issues.
You actually intimidate and
those bold ugly mud ducks want to try their luck at locking you down.
Not happening shawty.
It sucks but it is what it is.
I want to break the cycle.
I feel by writing this and venting
I will get some kind of shift in my universe.
I hope…
REGGIE:
If you are going to blog, please blog about something that is worth blogging. “VAIN” people blogging is like Halle Berry actually stopping after hitting someone with her car. Not happening. I do not have the time or energy to comment on this shit. I won’t. I will end it here. I am trying so hard for people to take gay people seriously and not a joke. But reading this was a damn unfunny joke. Like “Yo momma so old, I said it was chilly outside and she went and got a bowl!”
Right. This is “YOUR” blog but people don’t take “vain” people in with open arms. I mean, I am considered “cute” but I will be damned if that’s all I talk about on “MY” blog. I try to inspire people and break the s-t-ero-types of gay males, not enduce them more.
I could talk about me all day but who wants to read that?!?
Sorry but Zion is my little brother. And if you like, we won’t be visiting this blog about a discreet male who is more “sexy” or uses a profile picture of his ass.
Thanks anyway.
The Harajuku Ken Doll A.K.A. The King Of Fuckery
😛
I speak about other issues.
You chose to only see my “vain” attitude.
But if you choose to leave, I can’t stop you. Thanks you for your opinion though.
wow…..i`m shocked out of my weaved up,trailer trashy looking ass….this is bullshit…..all i got from ur post…me,me,me,me,me,me,me,me….you shallow mutherfucker…..and unlike these mutherfuckers sucking on ur dick…i`ll tell u the truth…living life as a dl man isnt sexy it just wack…talking bout how ur ass be looking……grow the fuck up… u`re just degrading urself in more ways than one..creepying around looking like fool…thinking thats life but it aint….zxxx
This is “MY” … you see the word in the quotations… “MY” blog. So it’s all about ME, ME, ME, ME, ME, ME … cool? Who the hell is it going to be about? LOL You?
I GET IT BABY IT`S ALL BOUT U “STEREOTYPE ANNIE””….ALWAYS TALKING SHIT WITHOUT BALLS TO BACK IT UP…LIVIN UR LIFE THROUGH BULLSHIT…I`M TOO GROWN TO CREEPYING AROUND…I DONT NEED TO BE ASHAMED OF MY SEXUALITY…U`RE SUCH A LOW CASE MUTHERFUCKER WIT NO HOPES N DREAMS…JUST BE BEING A DL…. IS ALL YOU LIVE 4 U….SUCK ON THAT BITCH.
ZXXX
I like your attitude. You are spunky.
Stay blessed. 😉
Let me tell yall. Ok I know exactly what you mean! But I had to learn that when something isnt going to work, it just isnt! Which Is Why I dont deal with DL men…I deal with DISCREET men when I was dating and that was a lot better. Im not deep into the gay life because Im just not that kind of person. I love them but Im not into a lot of people in general esp when it comes to men. I dont have sex, never have, So a lot of DL men spend their lives amounting to nothing but pointless fucks and that gets tiring. When you want more, they dont want to give it and IM NOT SIDELINE OR BACKSEAT WHORE, SO IM NOT GOING TO SIT THERE AND BE THAT FOR NO MAN.
I STARTED TO JUST LOOK ELSEWHERE AND FOUND A LOT OF GREAT MEN. NOT STEREOTYPICAL FLAMBOYANT GAY N SHIT, REGULAR ATTRACTIVE PROFESSIONALS… WITH GOALS AND LIVING THEIR LIVES THE WAY THEY WANT TO LIVE IT CAUSE THEY WORKED HARD FOR THEIR INDEPENDENCE!!
ITS HARD TRYING TO FIND A GOOD ONE, BUT FOR ME…THE FIRST STEP WAS LOOKING OUTSIDE THE BOX…A LOT OF THAT DL STUFF IS EMPTY. ITS A NEVER ENDING CYCLE OF PHYSICAL BUT ITS BORING ROUND AND ROUND. I HAD TO JUST LET PEOPLE KNOW IM NOT IN FOR THE BS….ITS HARD ENOUGH TRYING TO WEED THROUGH WHICH MAN GOT SOME SENSE AND WHICH ONE DOESNT!
I HOPE THIS HELPS SOME.
DELLA!
Intimidation is the story of my life. Not to sound jaded, but it is so hard to find a worthwhile gay man out there. Who isn’t all wrapped up in the hoopla, so busy trying to adhere to heteronormativity that he can’t fully live his homosexual lifestyle by standards not dictated by “normal” societal standards, and who has love in his heart to go around.
At least someone else is going through the same issue as myself.
I see what the sistas are talking about.
To find a man PERIOD is like trying to find a job in a depression.
Gotta keep sending out those apps so the right one will bite.