so today was an off day.
i don’t even know where the day went to be totally honest.
i know i cleaned up,
but the rest of it was a blur.
i felt weird.
like tense about something.
i don’t know what,
but it could do with thinking about some personal issues,
how im gonna pay some bills,
and trying to figure out things within my life that are bugging me.
i caught up on queen latifah’s talk show and she had a segment on an app called “stress check”.
you download it to your phone,
put your finger to your camera lens,
and it can check your stress level and give you an accurate reading.
well you know i like to try some new shit out.
this is what it told me just 10 minutes ago…
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i sometimes like to live in my head…
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ya know, its  funny...
it takes a near death experience to wake you up.
ironically that’s why i was up at 430 this morning…
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sit lets have a talk.
one on one…
so you would be surprised who reads my site.
i have a ton of lurkers from all walks of life.
i have some industry lurkers who also check me out.
i feel this should go out to them,
especially after that kevin terry debacle that happened today.
this is for ANYONE already in the public eye,
pursuing a career in the public eye,
or simply have a lot to lose in life.
pay attention…
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tonight one of my favorite songs came on during shuffle.
one of my songs that i listen to when i have stars in my eyes and big dreams in my mind.
r kelly is a genius when it comes to the music he creates.
i have pretty much all his music in my collection,
but the “r” album is one of my favorites.
not before “tp-2.com” and right above “r kelly”.
he has a song on that album called “did you ever think” remix with nas,
where he recalls when he use to have stars in his eyes and big dreams in his mind.
the hook sounds like what god asks him when life stands still:

Did you ever think that you would be this rich?
Did you ever think that you would have these hits?
Did you ever think that you would be the don?
Have a crib with a fifty acre lawn
Did you ever think that you would be this paid?
Were there times when your ass was real afraid?
Did you ever think that you would sell out tours?
Have a show with fifty million viewers…

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well not really,
but he damn sure was in a van tho.
( x jaye hardbody ) spirit negro,
idris elba,
had some tough times before he made it big.
stringer bell was broke and homeless at one point?
no!
i don’t believe it!
well yeah believe it baby.
after reading this snippet of an interview he had with playboy in usa today,
it opened my eyes to idris in a big way…

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