ever since i read this twitter thread,
i have not been able to stop thinking about it.
it hit me so hard,
i shared it in my foxhole ig stories.
i really appreciated that many of the foxhole had opinions about it.
“lovecraft country” helped shed light on what our ancestors dealt with,
but the extent of what they dealt with is so horrific.
some of the abuse can’t be shown on film,
no matter how much they try to water it down.
this particular meme in the thread made me think about homosexuality in the black community.
it was about “buck breaking” and…
what in theeeeeeeeeeeee entire fuck????
the inhumanity is what makes me want to vomit.
i went down that rabbit hole online and it disturbed my spirit.
they did this shit notoriously in the caribbean.
i can see why most caribbean folks are so homophobic,
jamaicans being the most notorious for their homophobia.
it was bad in barbados,
but i heard jamaica was on another level.
many of us being dl to hide what our parents tried to beat out of us.
monstrose from “lovecraft country” is a legit perfect example of that abuse.
besides toxic ass christianity,
this is one of the generational curses we have within in our community.
the idea that being gay means you are less than a man is bullshit.
so many weak ass straight black males out here prove that.
some of them carry on like they have a legit pussy.
black vixens be stronger than them too.
the fact gay slave owners did this to emasculate black males,
especially in front of their kids,
who went on to teach their kids to fear what they endured.
Do you realize how all of this abuse was passed down like old clothes and toys?
that is trauma going from generation to generation.
toxic masculinity really makes a lot of sense to me now.
this is why i keep fonting…
ALL BLACK FOLKS,
FROM STRAIGHT TO GAY,
we can’t advance as a people,
regardless of community,
because of what we have this heaviness still on our spirits.
our parents have shit passed down from their parents and grandparents.
this is why we all attach ourselves to that toxic christianity for healing.
it’s a whole mess.
this was really eye-opening to me and i wanted to share it on a larger scale.
lowkey: white folks need a whole purge.
its good to see their kids reversing their generational curses too.