the outcome of when two parties can’t agree and come to battle.
it usually entails massive violence,
disruption between citizens,
and ultimate destruction.
well what happens when the war is inside… you?…
i let someone back in my life recently.
he reached out to me,
but i was initially hesitant to reconnect.
even though i thought about our past friendship recently,
and saw various things that reminded me of him,
something in my spirit kept me from pressing “CALL”.
it was like something was blocking me.
with other people,
i wouldn’t have called in a couple months.
this was actually someone i knew for years.
the initial conversation went well.
he seemed to have changed.
well so he told me.
i noticed something was always being thrown in the discussion.
he admitted he was surrounded by bad energy and it fed on him like vultures.
he recalled a time where he actually saw a demon come out of him.
yeah some real off the wall “cw supernatural” shit.
whatever was going on was creating negative outcomes in his life.
well he was blowing up my phone yesterday afternoon.
i wasn’t going to answer,
again my spirit,
but i did.
when i answered,
he was in tears.
something was happening in his crib that brought in something evil.
apparently his relative who lives with him was doing voodoo or something.
my friend could feel it and it scared him.
even i could feel it.
“do you have a bible?”
“well open it and pray.”
after i got off the phone,
i felt absolutely drained.
my mood was great up until he called me with that foolishness.
i had to take a nap to recharge.
well when i woke up,
like 5 hours later,
i was in a real nasty mood.
i believe in negative people and the energy they can bring..
i’ve had to cut people out my life because of that.
so between yesterday and this morning,
i’ve been at war spiritually and emotionally.
i have no energy to do anything today.
its like all i want to do is sleep.
even though i updated my “about me and my site” sections last night,
everything was going wrong around me.
my dinner turned out terrible,
something that never EVER happens,
and i had a series of bad nightmares when i went to bed.
on the positive tho,
at least i’m getting spiritually stronger now.even though my mind wants me to feel bad and look at my circumstances,
something is working against that to lift my spirits.
kudos to all the shit i went through these last few years.
it’s making me into a tougher solider.
now what do i do about my friend?
that’s one battle i’m starting to be tired of fighting.