i learned something today.
at my last job,
i thought i had found life long friends there.
this was the first job i felt connected to so many folks.
creative black folks.
after i was let go,
many promised to still be there but as the months went on,
i noticed that started to change.
folks that once would hit me up every day suddenly stopped.
it made me question what happened?
did i do something wrong?
a co-worker/friend hit me up to check in on me.
i disabled my personal social media and i noticed that no one,
besides my current circle,
checked in on me until now.
i asked her if i did something wrong to incite such distance.
did folks think the ro-ro is gone?
i think people assume it’s over when biden got elected.
the ro-ro is still on her tour of america,
but i hope she is making her final stops soon.
I’m done with her.
there are ( x 10 million cases in the US ),
according to cnbc.
it seems all the trump supporters haven’t been learning not to test her.
this time in “who should have known better“,
it was a televangelist who claimed the rona was spread by gay sex and non-virgins…
you can tell when a wolf is really smitten with you.
i knew when wolves were into me by how their eyes lit up when i came around.
they always wanted their energy in my personal space too.
i remember writing about how nba baller wolf,
was not ready to be a dad.
( x see all that past drama here )
it seemed he didn’t want anything to do with ex-stripper,
well i think after he hate-smashed her into two cubs,
the following was probably inevitable…
my anxiety is back in full force again.
i’m not sleeping through the whole night.
i’m waking up to throw up at like 4 or 5 am.
during another night of stomach issues,
i woke up with something on my mind.
it’s been on my mind for a while now.
after my hiv scare years ago,
i haven’t felt as comfortable to have random sex.
scrolling through dating and sex apps don’t excite me as they once did.
i don’t have many male gay friends to go out with.
i thought i met a poi i was 100% attracted to,
but he might be entertaining a vixen these days.
i had to wonder...