You Like It Dark
actor and director,
phillip seymour hoffman,
was found dead today.
now i remember mr. hoffman for some of his movies,
but i never knew he was battling an addiction as serious as that.
hell i don’t think other people did either…
its funny to me how people are battling “something”.
in public or on social media,
they look great.
they look like they smell like “damn you should be me“.
once they go home to their privacy,
that’s where the real demons come out.
until they pass away unexpectedly,
that’s when every secret flies out the closet.
hollywood is a dangerous place for the weak.
everyone wants to join this “club” so they can be cool.
they think being in the public eye equates to self esteem.
i wont sit here and say its not fun.
once you truly make it,
you can really do anything you want.
suddenly you are thrown into a world where you are “wanted”.
it becomes addictive.
just like when you start getting likes and follows.
you want more of that so you are climbing.
you can try your hardest to avoid it.
ive worked in the industry enough to know this.
nothing is always as it seems with celebrities.
its always the naive ones i have to warn the most.
just last week i had to hip a wolf to game.
“are you willing to fuck a man,
or even just suck his dick,
just to get put on?”
“are you strong enough to say no when all kinds of drugs are being offered?”
“can you turn the blind eye when you see your fav selling their soul?
you are attractive too so they will probably eat you up.”
the baller wolves i love.
98% has done something or will.
no one is immune to the dark side.
people think they will avoid it because of this “great talent”.
oh because you know how to sing…”
i usually laugh.
that maybe true,
but there’s levels everything you try to pursue in like.
not just even hollywood.
from corporate america to even church.
are you strong enough?
can you put aside all your morals?
i’m still shocked when i hear stars die like this.
i can say that i’m shocked today mr. hoffman.
not too surprised tho.
i’m kind of immune to it now.
nothing really surprises me anymore.
again: this is hollywood.
a place where having access to your wildest dreams can be a gift and a curse.