Tag: me

something interesting happened last night i wanted to share.
it goes against my negative thoughts at times.
it also shows how God works in mysterious ways.
so the pretty vixen and i decided to go see “it” like i said.
since the film festival was at the movie theater,
it would kill 2 birds with one stone.
when we were buying the tickets

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI

tumblr_mv32huq06e1r338b3o1_500lunch.
today.
alone.
the line at subways was od long.
this random older white vixen starts talkin to me.
i like talking to strangers.
you can learn a lot.
we started to chit chat about the weather and other things.
she says:

“you give off good vibes.
you have a good spirit.”

“thanks.
you should tell other people that.
the ones who hurt me.”

“they’ll learn soon.”

little did she know,
i was really feeling like my heart has been ripped out my chest.
it’s sad how i’m just aimlessly living life.
a life where:

i don’t realize my own strength and power
i’m lookin’ for someone to love me
i put others before me
i allowed and tolerated disrespect

i came to a decision today.
well i came to it two weeks ago,
but i shared it with a closer reader in emails.

this afternoon is when i really set it in stone

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI

tumblr_muim2lwGV51rocvj9o1_1280as you know,
i love turning my crib into a spa.
since i can’t afford to go to a spa at the moment,
i always try to make my sanctuary my place of peace and pampering.
lately i have been feeling a little backed up.
i haven’t been as regular as i wanted to.
i decided that i was going to do a “colon detox” this weekend.
i wanted to treat myself inside and out.
foxes definitely need to make sure our tails stays fresh.

so it was a “me” situation this weekend.
no thoughts about work or a work wolf.
this entry is going to be tmi so you have been warned.
lets rewind back to a couple days ago…

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI

going-around-in-circles“i don’t know what i want.”

there i said it.
i thought i knew,
but i have no idea.
i know i want to be happy.
that is always number 1.

what is happiness to jamari fox tho?

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI

rainy_path_by_21711-d60m6d0so what triggered everything yesterday?
the letter.
the letter i got in the mail letting me my ui is ending next month.
now i know you say:
“well you already knew that.”
i did.
the letter came at the wrong time especially after the following events.
its a little long read but i hope you read it…

A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI