closure

my truth: it’s not my fault that you like to suck d!ck

I should have titled this entry,
“Addressing the drama…“,
like I was a YT influencer lol.

around this time last week,
i was given a story that ended up going left.
like,
real left.
so far left,
the whole car is in a swamp.
it involved an attentionosto that i wasn’t too familiar with.
truth: i had to google him last week to remind myself of who he was.
i’ve never fonted about him nor has The Foxholer ever sent him in as a feature.

I knew nothing about his life until this time last week.

so when i posted a video,
which looked like an onlyfans clip if i’m being honest,
~~and i can’t even say alleged since hit animals definitely barked the loudest,~~
all hell broke loose and i lost my patreon because of it.
it has left me feeling all the things but i woke up out my sleep with the urge for closure.
so…

this is my truth…

Continue reading “my truth: it’s not my fault that you like to suck d!ck” →

only you can wake TF up (no one else can snap you out of it)

i like to remind folks:

“You will wake up and find closure on YOUR time.”

everyone loves to tell you when you should move on,
but YOU have to come to that conclusion on your own.
this is why when your friends step back.
it’s not to make you feel alone but they need you to see it for it is.
that was me with a wolf that i was really interested in all of last year.
he was so sexy to me for whatever reason.
i started to passively hope he would see “me” as i saw “him”.
as i laid in that bed last week because of all the pain i was in,
this random thought came in my head…

Continue reading “only you can wake TF up (no one else can snap you out of it)” →

(UPDATE) Jealously May Have Killed Ahmad Love Yesterday

we can finally bring closure to this story.
the foxhole has been keeping me updated on it.
i’m always appreciative.
so remember ( x this entry )?
kenneth “ahmad” love was murdered by terrio sanchez williams.
in an alleged jealous rage,
he stabbed kenneth with a broken golf club.
well terrio will be locked away for a very long time.
this is what arkansas online had to update…
Continue reading “(UPDATE) Jealously May Have Killed Ahmad Love Yesterday” →

This Is You… Then.

How do you expect to move on, if you do not have closure?

That is the question ringing in my mind.
I don’t know if I am the type to hold a grudge, per say.
But, I do hold onto things even though I claim I am over it.
I will use those little things as examples for me not to fuck up in the future.
Which I think is relatively smart, but you do need to let go so you can successfully move on.
But, moving on is hard to do when you do not have closure.
So the real question is…