this didn’t help anyone’s anxiety in new yawk…
there i was,
engaged in the second season of ozark,
while under my covers when i heard about the mass shooting on the mta.
it’s like i’m at a point where i’m not shocked anymore.

Very dramatic video from the incident as the subway arrived at 36th St Sunset Park in Brooklyn. #brooklyn #shooting #nyc pic.twitter.com/5cOdeYPIb1

— Kristoffer Kumm (@Kristofferkumm) April 12, 2022

the world has gone mad off some kind of energetic liquid courage.
i have been getting my resume to get a cute part-time gig,
but this incident was confirmed for me yesterday…

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i legit embarrassed myself today.
even though i was with one of my amazing friends,
i don’t think i’m ready to be “out there” yet.
hunter hit me up and asked me what i was doing today.
he hasn’t seen me in a minute so we went to lunch.
carmines.
i told him i wanted pasta.
we were having a great time and conversation when…

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i can come off really guarded in person.
it’s nerves tbh.
it is all nervous energy in how i come off to other people.
when alcohol is in me,
my inhibitions can help me relax but i don’t want to become an alcoholic.
weed has only made me paranoid af.
honestly…

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this morning,
i woke up morning feeling oddly relaxed.
as of late,
that has been happening.
usually i wake up with a ton of anxiety,
but it felt like something was lifted off my spirit.
i been meditating every day,
which has been helping,
but ever since i started taking…
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…just getting home,
that’s where.
foxhole,
i’ve been working some long ass hours these last 2 days.
ima have to turn into bed in a few because i’m tired af,
but i just wanted to font…

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it started getting bad like a few weeks ago.
i’ve been playing it off pretty well.
i’m still dressing fly,
and my skin has never looked better,
but i’ve been dealing with a lot deep down inside.
it’s easy to wear a mask when you’re feeling like shit underneath.
bad enough,
i’ve been “sick” af too…

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