blogger ursovain and i have thee most inspirational “a-ha” moments in emails.
i enjoy corresponding with him.
yesterday we were talking about a wolf turned hyena he decided to meet offline.
from vain’s account,
the hyena and his “house” was not in order.
the house was a mess and he was an even bigger mess.
“well at least you realized this and left.
this life promotes “well sleep with him anyway’”.
“That was one of the realest statements I have heard in a while.”
it’s true tho.
someone else would have “slept with him anyway”…
i’ve noticed that most of “us” in the life are pretty much down for anything.
we don’t seem to have a “pump ya brakes” mentality towards sex.
we’ll meet someone,
he is completely disgusting and not out type in the least,
but we’ll “sleep with him anyway” because this constant need for sex.
sex is how we “control” each other.
well unless he is fat or looks like the swamp man.
then they sit over there—->
it never fails that we lay down with “ain’t shit” hyenas and jackals:
you meet him,
his apartment is a mess,
the cat’s litter box hasn’t been cleaned in weeks,
and his bathroom is nasty.
… but “sleep with him anyway” because he has a fat ass.
he is fine,
has a nice body,
he wears nice clothes.
on the other hand:
his breath smells like week ol bologna
his feet stink,
and he drowned himself in febreeze to try and mask the order.
…but “sleep with him anyway” because you saw the pipe and it was scrumptious.
he has no goals,
he spends most of his days on the couch,
his resume hasn’t been updated since 2005,
and he has been living off his sister forever.
…but “sleep with him anyway” because he has free smoke.
he has been pressuring you for sex.
you aren’t really feeling it because your spirit is telling you something ain’t right.
you haven’t had sex in forever and your friends make fun of you.
… but “sleep with him anyway” because he looked good in his private pictures.
whenever he sees you,
he always finds a way to touch you.
he is OD serious about trying to get some of that.
he is also your sister’s fiance.
… but “sleep with him anyway” because he is fine as hell and you hear he is good in bed.
you met him off online.
he is kinda thirsty,
but thats okay because he said he was a virgin.
he wants you to be the one to take his virginity.
he happens to be 14 and you are well in your 40s.
…but “sleep with him anyway” because you want to be the first to break those walls.
need i go on?
then after you sleep with him,
talk about him like a dog to everyone yo know so they can pass it on.
put his nudes online for the world to see so others could be jealous.
“these gays ain’t loyal”.
maybe i may come off bougie,
and i’ve never said i’m not,
but i’m not fuckin’ anyone that gave me red flags.
super ratchet pasts.
sure i have slept with wolves upon first meeting.
some of them i genuinely wanted and knew i would give up the ass.
only one wolf i will say i slept with being a dumb ass.
i was pressured into doing so because “you need to get some dick”.
well i did and it ended up being the worst sex i ever had.
it made for good stories to clown him,
but wasn’t i just as dumb to fuck someone i wasn’t sure about?
i had to wonder if this is just the standard in the “life”?
sleeping with everyone just “because”.
no matter how triflin’ the situation or the potential outcome?
only doing it because everyone else is.
if you aren’t “fuckin” then something is wrong with you.
having a 120 fever means something is wrong with you.
having some kind of class means you want quality instead of quantity.
does this make people like this weird?
stick out like sore thumbs because we demand a normal sane muthafucka?
one who has his shit together?
one who isn’t a “regret” or “someone to talk about”?
thats like going to a fancy restaurant,
seeing a roach in your food,
still eating it anyway,
then putting the restaurant on blast for being nasty on social media.
so i had to wonder…