i have come to the conclusion that my faith is not as strong as it should.
i’ll have issues,
claim i trust god to handle them,
but still worry about them when nothing is happening.
not my smartest idea.
well after my fast,
on some random thought bubble shit,
i remembered something beyonce said couple years ago…
yes you beyonce.
so when i was a super stan,
i bought the destiny’s child book,
there was a part where she said after the first group break up she was super depressed.
she didn’t leave her room for a week,
and was breaking out like crazy.
similar to what i am going through.
she said she “put everything in a box and gave it to god”.
that line always stuck with me.
she imagined herself putting all her troubles in a box and giving it over to god to fix.
michelle and farrah were manifested the wek after.
so “a ha” moment.
well i was on google and came up on an blog talking about that.
another random moment.
The idea is to have a container with a slot or opening on top. You write your present problem, worry, desire, or hard-to-make decision on a small piece of paper. (I like to end all my requests with the statement, “This or something better.” I believe that’s the real meaning of “If it be Thy will.”) You may even date your request if you like. Then fold it up and put it in your God box. In essence, “turning it over to God.”
Don’t stress out about what you should use as your God box, any container will do. Some examples of what my friends and I have used as God boxes are, a favorite cereal box, coffee can, oatmeal container, jewelry box, cigar box, a hamper, shoe box, and even a garbage can. Whatever you choose to use as your God box it will work, since the activating power is in releasing whatever it is to God.
…i ran in my room to make one.
when it looked like i couldn’t find anything to make the box with,
my eyes locked on a prada cologne gift box that was sitting in my closet.
something i thought i threw out years ago.
i made an opening with a knife and wallah:
lowkey: ya know its weird,
but i feel more connected spiritually since that fast.