i have had a lonnnnnnnnnnng day.
i’m tired as hell because it’s a busy week.
bare with my sluggishness.
this comment jay left yesterday under:
( x myvidster comments hurt my feelings )
had me thinking all day tho.
i love a good mind fuck.
check what he had to say…
I’m surprised no one else grasped the deeper meaning of what he’s saying. He revealed quite a bit about how he feels about himself.
In the first half he already states he basically feels he’s not what’s considered attractive or desirable by gay men’s standards, which may be why he gets satisfaction from performing oral sex on different dudes on camera for the internet to see with each one ejaculating on his face and in his mouth. It’s a worship complex because they are the standard and he’s not.
I’ve never seen him ask for any form of reciprocation and he’s given no indication he desires it and that may be tied directly to his sense of self worth.
Then in the second half he tries to make it seem like the fact these dudes come to him somehow increases his self worth. These men are not hitting him up because he’s intelligent, considerate, or someone worth getting to know. They want one thing. They get their relief and he gets his by getting on his knees and pleasing “the standard”.
He doesn’t sound that different from a multitude of gay men honestly. His sense of worth is directly tied to people’s perception and the men he can pull.
jay you better shut up.
you making too much sense babe.
so i was looking at nathanielnior’s instagram the other day.
truth be told nann wolf ain’t trying to cuff that.
he’s like a video vixen for the gay world.
this beautiful creature that teases wolves with carefully crafted ass shots.
sometimes he shows he has a brain with a borrowed quote.
his arm pits could smell like nacho cheese,
breath smelling like ammonia,
and god help ya if he is a fuckin’ psycho.
not to be blunt,
but as long as his ass is delivered nice and fresh…
well you already know.
i had to wonder if this will ever change in this life we live?
we are taught by these invisible forces that we are gay,
so that means we should be out there fucking/partying/ratcheting up a storm.
it also means we are pets to straight women who need a stand in boyfriend.
there is no such thing as a relationship for us.
well unless it’s with someone fine we fantasize about.
even then if we get that fine person,
it ends before it even begins.
what happened to getting money?
having good credit?
showing those things off like the straights do?
why are we just objects?
a wet mouth to suck?
tight “boi pussy” to throw?
it’s almost like we have to be “on” all the time.
by “on” i mean ready,
and able to be ratchet at a moment’s notice.
we aren’t taught to say,
“naw i’m good”.
we are taught to just do it and have no regrets.
“fuck your mother’s new boyfriend because he looks at you.”
“smash your pastor on the altar after service.”
“suck off with your neighbor’s fine son who is barely legal.”
you end up having regrets somewhere down the line.
by that time its too late.
so i had to wonder…