If You Died Tomorrow, Then I’m Dying Too
^ i was on ( x draya’s instagram ) this morning,
and within her million selflies,
she posted something of substance.
i’m proud of you draya.
that is a topic i know all too well.
i’m sure you too.
comparing yourself to everyone else.
i’m starting to think a lot of people’s self worth issues come from others.
especially on social medias. you see mister muscles being a flexing selfie maniac and you think…
if only i could i would be…”
or you see the queen on tube,
suckin and fuckin every fine ass wolf on the east coast and you think:
“i need to compete and use my body parts to get these…”
case in point this muscular-thick solid wolf i use to mess with couple years ago.
he was so fine and i was insanely sexually attracted to him.
i can talk sexual/have sex with someone and thrown them in the trash with no issue.
with him tho,
he always kept me mentally stimulated and that turned me the FAWK on.
good looks + nice body + can talk to me = kryptonite
he would call me up at 1,2, or 3 in the morning just to tell me go to “such and such” page.
not because they were sexy and he wanted to fuck them.
he wanted their bodies.
he would literally whine about some model with a nice defined body.
he’d then tell me he was getting up to go to the 24 hour gym to work out.
needless to say we didn’t work out.
he started bringing more insecurities to what could have been with us.
sigh… he was everything they were and better.
we get caught up into thinking the more likes you get,
the better human you are.
we don’t see that these same people could be just a huge mess as we are.
i started to wonder if in life,
do we need to compare ourselves to other people just a little?
i know when i see these @attentionwhores,
it makes me want to:
a) dominate them in bed and have them blowning up my phone for more
b) do better within my own life
instead of looking at the “likes” and “the funhouse”,
i look at the lust and the motivation.
them doing good makes me want to do better.
it’s friendly competition with a side of pipe.
some people just want to be “that person”.
step in their shoes and then get back to me.
when it comes to comparing yourself to other people…