when the foxhole comes through with the mental treats…
i love when we indulge.
so hugo89113 wrote the following comment in the last entry,
“how come you don’t call”.
what he “had” said was…
“The funny thing with interest nowadays is that so many people have it confused with “thirstiness”. Somewhere in the last decade the culture has made being into someone a desperation tactic and its sooo damaging and wrong. Hence why many play the aloof game.”
that is fuckin it!
that comment is so true that i’m fuckin insulted.
it’s got me feeling like you are labelled “thirsty” for being interested.
i remember work wolf telling me this one vixen who really liked him,
he stopped speaking to her because she called him on the phone.
his response was:
she always calling me.
like who does that?”
he did enjoy using her “thirst” for attention and to feed his fragile ego.
he never told her this tho.
when she was blowing up his phone after he ghosted her,
he labelled her as “crazy”.
like are you serious right now?
he did that same shit to me.
“he” represents many in the friendship/dating world.
wanting to be constantly fed,
and discarded once you serve no purpose any longer.
you get no closure and a “moment”.
we act “thirsty” for jobs and money,
but when it comes to real life connections,
we shut that shit off like a light switch.
can’t compliment no one or treat em like you want them in your life.
if they got a nice facial or bawdy,
in order to have them stick around,
you treat them like they ugly and fat af.
when someone is interested,
and they are your type,
it makes you start questioning what do they really want from you.
i know i did.
i won’t even lie…
wolf hit me up more than i did,
but in the back of my mind,
i was wondering…
Why is he being so nice to me?
i ended up being right,
but i still was guarded until i decided to let that down.
“this” a very unhealthy and toxic way to live.
so like i fonted in that same entry,
do we keep this “aloof” mask on,
only to remove it later on to show the real “us”?
does that make it better?
how do we even know someone is interested in us?
a lot of texting?
wanting to see you?
the sex is extremely passionate?
they have no issue spending money?
meet the family?
all that shit can still lead to a “casper”.
i truly don’t get it anymore.