I’m a dl bisexual guy, although I’ve mostly been focusing on guys lately because I fell in love with one. He’s your typical alpha type and he’s in the military. Total womanizer and extremely good looking. We grew up hating each other – always fighting and arguing. Then as we moved into adulthood (around 18 years old), we became frienemies, then eventually just friends. Eventually, something happened and we fell in love. He would call every morning like clockwork as soon as he opened his eyes, then he would call every night right before bed, not to mention an afternoon call. We never made love (although he came to my house one time and made it clear that he wanted us to fuck. I just wasn’t ready for that step with a man). He told me that he’s in love with me after I finally admitted my feelings.
I was very difficult. Poor guy was like the man in a man/woman relationship with me. I guess it’s because we grew up arguing so I never really grew out of it. Anyway, we grew apart and he stopped talking to me. Then he started talking to me again and then I stopped talking to him. It’s a cycle. Then he started rewriting out history and acting like we were never in love. I thought I was crazy until i called him out one day and asked him if he was in love with me. He told me the following:
“If you know a fish is going to swim down a river, would you still ask if the fish is going to swim down the river?” But then he told me I can’t have it my way and that he’s not able to give me what I want. After that he completely erased our history from his mind and he went back to dating women and being in relationships with them. I guess I kind of know why he pushed me away…plus his family is church-going and homophobic (plus the military thing). I just want to know your thoughts.
I’m only asking because this has been going on for 10 years and I am so heartbroken. The ordeal changed me for the worse. I’m not the same person I was and now I sleep around with my just trying to fill a void. I think he’s my one great love.
there was a wolf i knew.
bisexual and perfect.
he wanted me so bad.
i wanted to fuck this wolf so bad.
my bawdy was literally yearning,
but i was scared to go there with him.
well after a mistake in communication,
and being a brat,
he stopped speaking to me.
i was younger on that frontin shit:
…but i knew i fucked up.
i stumbled upon him years later and he looked even better.
he glo’d up with a new look and bawdy.
my bawdy still yearned for him,
but it looked like he left the life and moved on.
at that time in my life,
i don’t think i was ready for someone like him.
it waits for no one.
neither does love.
we think someone will wait for us.
i suspect that’s what happened with you and this wolf.
i also suspect other things added onto his decision to end it.
it seemed to have started with intense sexual attraction.
all the back and forth created an intense emotional attraction.
your situation reminds me of this song:
…but on his end in the beginning.
he handed it off to you and now you’re singing it.
i just don’t think you were ready.
he was; you weren’t.
no other fox is like you so he left it all alone completely.
to fill your void,
he found your replacement(s) who have vaginas.
you are trying to fuck him out your system.
that never works
if he is your great love as you say,
he may come back.
they always say they won’t and they usually do.
i also don’t believe there is only one great love out there for us.
in all honesty,
before you deal with another love,
i think you need to do your own healing.
you need to properly let go so you can say “goodbye”,
if not “see ya around”.
no reason in waiting around for a “what if”.
it’s okay to be heartbroken because that’s love.
10 years is a long time.
there is no “faults” because that’s just how love goes.
i suggest you start to accept that.
he may not be the wolf you want him to be.
he has too much baggage that you may not be able to handle.
so go through the emotions and stop sleeping around.
jumping on random dicks is only hurting you.
you need to take some time for you and treat it like a funeral.
it’s funny you sent this because work wolf put up a pic on his social media today.
it was him and his vixen.
one of our mutual friends told me:
he is really feeling her.”
that stung a little.
i felt sad for like 10 minutes but i quickly dismissed it.
i find myself missing what we “had” and the things we “did”.
it wasn’t 10 years,
but it was intense.
there is someone else out there for me tho.
same for you as well.
i hope this helped you in some way.
i’m sure the foxhole will leave some inspirational comments as well.