why does it seem like people like to group everyone in a box?
just because one person,
or a couple people have done the same thing,
does not mean that the whole race or community is that way.
here is a good example: black people like to think all the whites are the same.
i have heard people say:
“you can’t trust them.”
“they only tolerate us.”
“they smile in your face and call you a nigger behind your back.”
i have encountered racist white people before.
there is an old snow wolf at my job who i know is racist.
i can see it in his eyes when he comes up to my desk.
he barely wants to touch anything after me.
i even heard he has said racist things to others about some of the mailroom wolves.
so because he and a couple others are this way,
should i group them all in the same category?
i actually got this same job because of someone white.
my old boss and my new one are white as well.
i treated them with the same respect,
showed them i’m not some hoodrat they may have grouped me in as,
and in turn they saw that i was different.
the same also goes with “us” within the life.
we all know there are some messy ass people who walk among us.
some are obvious.
others are more discreet with their messiness.
i try to wipe the slate clean and give everyone a chance.
how i do this?
i judge people based on their actions.
people have hurt me time and time again with promises and ear hustlin.
i try to remember that not everyone is out to get me.
my guard always stays up,
but i give people that benefit to fuck up.
kinda like how i did with liar liar.
i guess my issue is that i believe people will do what i do.
i’m learning that everyone isn’t a “good” person and sometimes,
it takes getting to know them to realize that.
some people were just born to be evil.
some were good,
but let life turn them bitter and unforgiving.
some only know “survival” and will stab you before they get stabbed.
even if there was no knife in the other person’s pocket.
sometimes it takes their lesson for you to learn how to handle people.
after countless trusting the wrong people,
i have finally learned how to add and subtract.
saying “goodbye” now isn’t as painless as it once was.
i don’t want to live a life where i am bitter about my past.
to the point that everyone who i come in contact with is deemed:
“I’M WAITING ON THEM TO FUCK UP.”
who wants to live like that?
then why even try to meet new people?
why even date?
wolves i was attracted to heavy have rejected me.
some even played me.
i can be honest.
it was the ones i have really liked too.
i was tight,
but i throw that wolf to the trash and clean his spot off with ammonia.
Is it wrong to think like this?
i personally don’t think so,
but i could be wrong.