butt cracks, barb, bardi gang, and baggage claim

Foxhole,
we might be off the beaten path.

when i was younger,
i was a little demonic stan for many pop divas.

mariah,
britney,
jlo,
bey.

no one could say anything bad about them or i’d be all in my feelings.
tbh,
i felt like they were speaking my life and pain through their music.
i didn’t have anyone in my life to mentor me so i took to their music and personas.
i feel that is what happens to many gay youth who don’t have any irl mentors.
they’ll fiercely protect these pop divas to show loyalty.
em made a song that created the word,
stan“.

as much as i fucked with these pop divas,
it never got to the point i wanted to go fight someone tho.
it was never that serious for me.
my motto for life has always been:

I may go up to line,
play around and might do a little dance,
but I try not to cross it.

so there was a stan war between a barb and a cardi(?) stan that went goofy.
it was between @jazmineonika2 and @popsongaesthete…

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what’s eating gilbert? a straight and gay friendship, that’s what!

I’ll never forget the hurt I felt when WW said to someone,
and not even to me directly,
that he “sent me away because he didn’t want anyone thinking he was gay by association”.
That broke me to the core
because I had his back when those same folks were talking wild shit about him.
Thank GAWD I healed from that.

i judge straights by their defense of their gay friends.
straight males and vixens.

the following is one of the reasons why straights get weird.
some of them can’t fathom a straight male being platonic friends with a gay male.
i guess it stems from:

“Males can’t be friends with vixens because sex has to be involved somehow.”

which makes it seem like males are sex fiends who can’t control their urges.
ex-baller nba wolf,
nick young

…became cool with saucy santana during their college hill stint.
another ex-nba baller jackal,
gibert arenas,
decided to clown nick young for being cool with saucy…

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yay! more fighting on reality tv! we haven’t seen that before!

when trash reality tv first dropped in the mid 00s,
fighting was the main draw on shows like bad girls club.

it was fascinating to see “real life people” doing this on tv.
when trash reality tv gave randoms storylines with lhhatl in 2011,
we tuned in because “such and such” had beef and by reunion time,
we just knew that they were gonna get “tah” boxing.

we have seen fighting over and over and over and over and
you get the idea.
so when natalie nunn and joseline decided to act like feral animals on “something”…

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usher “does” bad decision on a spiritual level

bey gets it right.
when she has a project coming out,
she stays quiet while promoting her brand.
at this point,
she doesn’t even give anyone interviews anymore.
she lets us feast on her drops and we do all the talking/fonting.
before and during her big moments,
she has mastered the art of silence.
during her downtime,
she is like a sleeping dragon who stays off the radar until she is awake.

Bey carries herself like royalty.

usher,
who just had a huge career resurgence and has everyone in lust

decides to go do this

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charlamagne thinks “big backs” are the only ones being thirsty for menz

i was sitting here this morning,
reflecting before i started my day over a dream i had about work wolf.

i had to answer a question during shadow work and i conjured him from the emotional dead.

It made me realize how much of a Pick-Me I use to be.

yes i was.
i was a pick-me with no boundaries who was desperately trying to get picked.
in order to find yourself,
you gotta risk embarrassment but i ain’t embarrassed.
i’ll write it in big font:

I use to be a Pick-Me!

a pick-me can look like whatever or whoever and come from any social background.
there are plenty of IG attentionistos,
some of the baddest you ever seen,
that are putting up with all kinds of shit just to be chose.
you see how many of them get caught up being thirsty for sex.
so when i see charlamagne talmbout miss lady in the “who tf did i marry” saga…

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let’s shack up so i have in-house penis and we can split this light bill

I’m gonna give myself props.
I don’t care if you look like this tatted wolf above,
and you licked every part of my bawdy,
Ima need you to take your ass home once it’s done.
I don’t do “lets shack up and host dinner parties”.

so when i heard of folks shackin up to split bills with just anyone,
or just any random they are fuckin’ atm,
i gave that instant pause.

i couldn’t press the button fast enough.
it’s in-house penis and they help with the bills but we really don’t know people.
we learn the true characters of people once we move in with them.
like,
your whole shacker-upper could be a serial killing hyena like this jackal…

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