i saw this while trying to wake up this morning and i had thoughts about it
no offense to the person behind this @ but at times,
i think some of us gays can be ignorant and love to flex.
we love to act like we are above it all…
online.
i feel like DL males let you know from the start that they DL.
it ain’t no plot twist just when the shit just starts getting good with them muhfuckas.
they let us know how they get down in those first few conversations but sometimes…

We feel like if we suck his dick better from the right than the left,
he gonna wanna pull up and hold hands in the mall.

i wanna re-frame this in another way…

i saw this tweet and saw my life flash before my eyes.
i saw past friendships,
frenemies,
and all kinds of bitches from my mental spin around the friendship block.
i can’t font for others but this is simply from my own experiences…

as a black gay content creator,
who has launched the Foxhole in 2009,
i learned the hard way how many straights can use you for their benefit.
i’ve seen other gays who do content or have pull get used as well.
if you have a “i want to be liked” spirit,
or “i want to fuck every attractive and sexy male” spirit,
you will always fall into their traps to your doom every time.
the hard reality is…

“What about your friendssssssss…”

that is one of my favorite tlc songs next to “creep“.
do we have real friends in our lives?
or do we have stand-ins who will let us down?
there is always a prominent thing that has happened in my life with past friends…

Yesterday was…
Well…

i had all intentions of coming on the Foxhole after my errands yesterday.
i had a plan yesterday morning.
God often laughs when you make plans but this might have been the devil.
well i ain’t laughing.
so i got a call from my therapist just as i was on the way home.
i never get any calls from her outside of the days of my session.
she tells me…

this past week,
i felt like i was being stretched thin.

Have you just ever felt like you are being pulled in so many directions that you feel like breaking?

it got to the point where i could feel myself wanting to scream.
i’ve had some issues going on irl that have been draining me,
shadow work has been really taking me down the path of no return,
and then the Foxhole issues have piled on top of that.
i thought i finally reached my happiness but the devil said nope.
what really is getting me tho…