i haven’t felt this way,
it feels good to be in control of my narrative.
to be comfortable in my fur.
i’ve always been too excited when a wolf comes into my life.
when it doesn’t work out,
or i misconstrued what the motives are,
i’m pulled down into the deep depths of depression.
not so much.
so i met up with a wolf on friday…
Category: A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI
i thought my contract at this job was 6 months.
was i wrong.
it was actually for 3 months.
who knew time flew by so fast?
i been working my tail off in this new position.
not as much as my old jobs,
but this position is a lot more laid back.
the contract ended today…
i use to want “something” so bad.
i don’t know how to define that “something” for the foxhole.
it was all of those things actually.
whatever it was,
i wanted to be filled with it.
i was putting everyone before me.
it was very unhealthy.
well my heart was finally broken in 2016.
i am grateful it finally did.
things have changed.
i said to myself today…
mi reminds me of porsha williams.
one of the reasons i can’t stand her on rhoa.
they get by on good looks and sob stories,
but underneath is a violent she-jackal who attacks on emotions.
too bad for mi that once the bridge is burned with me,
it’s pretty hard to cross back over.
at work today,
i was dealing with an important call when my phone started to ring.
no sooner did i decline the call,
it rang again.
it rung a third time.
i always asked God to allow me to be attractive.
many told me i was attractive,
but i never believed it.
i always saw my flaws in hd eyes.
something was always wrong with my face.
if it wasn’t acne,
it was something else.
my comparing game was strong too.
everyone seemed so perfect.
it stopped me from truly living my best life.
well i was having a discussion with the pretty vixen today.
somehow we got on the topic and she texted this…