i found myself just now catch up on this show called girls.
it comes on hbo and it is pretty good.
last nights episode was so true to life for me.
you ever watched something and it reflected something you went through?
who knew lena dunham would write an episode that would have me locked in…
i met this wolf on a chat site a couple years ago.
before i started this site.
he was older than me.
he didn’t have any pictures on his profile,
but he wanted to meet because he liked my energy.
i suggested we meet at a starbucks.
close to his home.
we met and he was really handsome.
he looked like a movie star.
he had a nice build underneath his clothes.
taller than me.
he took me to his brownstone and it was beautiful.
it was extremely clean and decorated effortlessly.
he showed me around.
i asked him why did he trust me enough to show me his spot like this?
he said that i had a trusting spirit.
that made me feel good.
i don’t know if it was him,
or his apartment,
but we fucked IMMEDIATELY.
i knew from the first time i saw him,
he would get it.
when i tell ya’ll it was soooooooooooooo good.
it wasn’t like the boys i was use too.
this was a man.
a seasoned wolf.
he ate me out like a champ.
his stroke was also really solid.
he put me in positions i didn’t know existed.
all i remember saying was “oh shit… oh shit…”
clearly he fucked me stupid.
we just laid together and talked.
i knew in that moment that i wanted his life.
i wanted to have the nice brownstone.
i wanted to live in that neighborhood.
he admitted to me that he liked me a lot.
i wasn’t like the boys he fucked before.
one even stole something from him.
i think HE was too trusting.
we talked for a while after,
went to dinner a few times,
but he was too busy being an online toss.
i’d sign on and there he was.
i liked him,
but i had to bounce.
i wonder what would have happened if i stayed with him?
wait for the upgrade?
i will never forget his house.
i guess what that episode made me realize is i’m not happy.
i want more.
i want to have “that” life.
have money to do shit.
mess with wolves like that.
just less online,
i feel i deserve that.
i deserve a good man and a good life.
….is that wrong?
lowkey: she fucked that whole situation up.
way too much talking on her end.